8th Entry

Well 2012 is coming tonight...and I was fucked with, just as I had expected by that girl. Well fuck it! I have someone to take care of it, as I say "payback's a bitch". And it's good to know I can rely on someone to help me out.

Anyway...

Had a paintball game today, didn't really go as planed, but fine if you had my life you would be used to stuff not going as planned. Well I still got some cool filmage now just add the music some little editing and we are good!

An old friend of mine (female) beautiful blue eyes, started talking to me again, it's kinda what I need at this stage. Gonna try my luck with this one, had her once...Fucked it up...Then I had her again...managed to fuck that up too...now I have this turn and I'll be on my best behaviour hahahah

Another very old friend of mine, female also, talked to me today...our friendship is over and guess what the last thing I told her was "you have a nice ass" ahahahah that's just fucked up right? ahahah

7th Entry

Well I guess I was tricked again. She hasn't sent me a text or anything, I'll take it she was just trying to make some point.   (I'm still WEAK!!)

Guess I'm still easy to conquer. Very dissapointing to myself, I'll see if she will send me something today, but yesterday I sent her a couple of texts and she didn't reply. Maybe she ran out of texts, but if she had she most likely would had told me.

6th Entry

I'm starting to think that all she was doing was trolling me, or maybe it's just me, I did "glue" onto her to soon. It's going to kill me when I find out all she was doing was trolling with me, if I find it hard to trust anyone now imagine after I get played with again...

We do have many things in comun but still, that's what I thought about all the others and look how that came out. This is really messing up my head, it just becomes harder and harder to think.

5th Entry

I'm not sure if she is just toying around with me, but by what she said it's seems she is actually falling in love with me.

Could this really be happening?

She ain't bad at all exept for the SMOKING part, but I'll try my best to make her STOP. Now let's see if I don't screw this up, because I really need this.

Guess my luck just changed (finally)

4th Entry

Okay not What the HECK has just heppend?

It's like my whole life just took a 180º turn to the best! I really wasn't expecting this, a girl out of nowhere just started to TALK to me...I guess shit just happens.

Well anyway let's just see if I don't screw this up like I did all those other times.

3rd Entry

She almost caught me for a second, almost got me in her trap, but I guess I'm not that stupid.

These portugese people piss me off more and more every time! I'm getting fed up of them with there lies, there little games, there jokes the coments! EVERYTHING about them I HATE!

Anger is a very powerfull feeling, it can give you Rage and Hate and so much other feelings!

Anyway, I'm still waiting for the girl. Still haven't got a sign, but leave it.

I have my bros they're portuguese and they're the best potuguese lads I know! It's like its me and my 3 mates against the hole WORLD!

2nd Entry

The teenagers nower days DISGUST me. I have 1 collegue that flirts with girls just to fuck them the next night, another one who is dating a girl for 1 week and breaking up with her and then starting another relationship with a friend of hers....

He is a complete S.O.B.

I don't know why someone would even do that! It's disgusting! I admit that in the U.K. I had many different girlfriends at the same time but they KNEW! And they didn't mind, and anyway I was just a little kid!

Man Kind is becoming more and more disgusting BY THE DAY! If it's from harming animals to stealing from each other...

Where is the logic in THAT!?

My dreams trick me more and more every night, showing me with true love beside me, yet I know not WHO SHE IS! Will I ever find her? What will she be like? Do I already know her?
Those are all questions I would love to know. Yet NO ONE can answer them for me...(YET)

1st Entry

Alot has changed in my life, from love to friends, even family...I lost the 1st girl I loved truly to a coward friend of mine. Yeah life is tough, it's getting to the end of the year 2011 (worst year of my life so far)...
I am NOT looking forward to it. I HATE New Year! expecially when it's the coming of the year 2012...
That is the year I and many others suspect the world to end...
I really don't want to go back to school...no matter how happy I may appear there I am hating it! I continue to mix Love with Sexual interest...
A girl I am higly interested in, is pretty hard to take care of I'll tell you that...I'm not expecting anyone to read this but THE HELL WITH IT! I think I can say:

I HATE HUMANS!

Stress comes to over power my moral thinking, I come to say things I regret, harming others I love...
I only really have 3 real mates...all I really need, I would really like to find true love again...
A girl that I love just as much as she does me, one I can trust not to lie to me or cheat A PERFECT RELATIONSHIP. But as I know no such thing exists, so no point fighting for it...

The world to me looks just like the picture...