26th Entry

Well I found out someone has been waiting for me to post a new Entry, so here it is.

Everyone turns out to be the same exact shit. Some people get lucky maybe find 3 or 4 special people that don't betray you, and still most of them end up fucking it up and loosing them.

I'm fed up of people expecting ME to keep things together and keep talking to them, here is something you can note to yourselfs < I AIN'T FUCKING FIGHTING NO MORE BITCHES! > I've seen and been friends with some of the nastiest motherfuckers on this planet and I went through shit and still am for trusting them!

I don't get the girls of nower days, I go to school with black baggy trousers and shit, minding my own buissness, and I've been told a few times I should wear shirts, so I went a few times to school with a shirt and jeans on, and everyone is like "Wow you look hot" and "I like what I'm seeing here", and then I'm like "WTF!? nothing changed! I still have the same clothes the same body and the same fucking personality!!!" People STOP judging other people by what fucking clothes they wear! It is fucking annoying! Girls and guys and equal MORONS! Girls like guys that are funny, cute, and have a big dick, guys like girls that have hudge tits a nice ass and that are hot as shit...

I'M NOT LIKE THAT!

I like a girl that's jealous, sincere, cute, funny, that talks alot, that likes kids, wants to get married, that likes spending a day home watching a movie snuggled up to her boyfriend, that likes to talk 24 hours a day and that doesn't let the conversation die, that likes to play video games, that doesn't mind making me a sandwich and that doesn't give a shit about my body or about what the fuck I wear!

But a girl like that doesn't exist...

25th Entry

Well I haven't been here for agers, seriously, not much as happend, I've kinda found out that alot of people I trusted pretty much were just acting, to be my friends and get something outta it.

I really want to go back to the U.K., it's there that I belong, not here (Portugal). I hate everything here, I only feel ok when I'm with my bros, besides that everyday is like limbo.

24th Entry

Last night I got a text here is what I read:
"Roses are red
violets are green
I want you in my bed,
If you know what I mean"

       That brang a hudge smile to my face, the person that sent me this knows who she is cuz she is my number one fan, and the Entry is specialy just for her.

     She was the 1st girl I met face to face without any internet chats, it was almost as if fate placed us together that night. I could find my pair to end my frase so my teacher helped me by adding me to someone else, everyone already had a pair, then out of nowhere there she was with some dork, just standing chatting with each other no one else was around them. I remeber praying that moment they said to find our pair this: "please get hot girl, please get hot girl, please get hot girl" and I got a princess, her eyes were shinning, her face lightened my night, her cute voice and soft hair. It was like love at 1st sight, but I knew already that it would be the 1st and last time I would talk to her, we were both in a relathionship with other people. Still nothing stopped me from making a few jokes and making her laugh.

Now she is the only girl I talk fluent english with, the only one that has been there for me, the only one I can have fun conversations with.


And I want to tell her this:

No just kidding babe this is what I mean:

I love You to the MOON and back!

<3 Mariana Alberto <3

23rd Entry

Well I must say I haven't updated this for a while now, and I'll be the 1st and only one to say, "FUCK!" it isn't going well for me.

I made a good friendship with a mate of mine which is great, but man have I fucked up every other friendship I had with girls, again. I just don't get what is wrong with me.

I wait 24/7 just get a text from someone, but yet, nothing, I get it I saw with my own eyes hoe fuckin' boring I am so don't worry, I won't be struggling no more.

Anything I saw brings tears to someone, anything I do gives pain to someone, There is no HOPE for me.

I just want to go home...